A New Begining

Take a deep breath and... JUMP!!

2011-05-25T14:10:00.000-07:00

I am far from having everything planned out but I have a place to start now! First things first I have to conquer all the battles of starting school, which, there are many more than I ever would have thought! Next is the physical trainer course. Although this is a new thing I have been wanting to do I feel it is very important, my goal is to go to school to be a Dietitian/Nutritionist and a PA or a NP (which will allow me to prescribe and alter medications) so I can train people to be healthy and eventually, if at all possible, get them off of thier medications. I feel this is a much healthier route than prescribing medications that very often require more medications to counteract side effects. I do agree that modern medicine has saved lifes and is very benificial, however I don't feel it should be the automatic route for the majority of people.

My next step is getting a little healthier myself, cardio and healthy eating! I can't very well tell my patients to be healthy as I sit on my butt and do nothing! I'm excited about getting started on this, it's still in the medical feild, I'm still heloping people AND it'll allow me to make my own schedule! Yay!

So I guess the last thing I have to do is take a deep breath and...JUMP!!

Before I end this post I want to say thank you to the one who showed me chivalry isn't dead, that men still do appreciate and respect women. I will forever be grateful to you for showing me my strengths and weaknesses and pushing me to be the woman I want to be. Thank you for seeing me when I didn't.

Questions and answers

2011-05-09T18:38:00.000-07:00

How many times in my life have I been in this exact situation? How many times have I wondered where my life was going and not relizing until months later that I have been what was in the way? How many times have I put my life on hold for something that will never be, why do I always hold on to what I know is not right? What do I gain from putting myself in a painful situation, why do I want to be there? Is pain really better than not having what I really want? Even though I've asked myself these questions before I still seem to justify myself, until ofcourse I am finally able to look at it from an outside view, after I've healed from it.

And that brings me to wonder, how much longer am I going to not allow myself to heal. I know I'm doing it to myself, I don't want to admit that I have to let go. I don't want to give this to God because I know if I do I wont have anything left to hold on to. What's worse is I know that by doing this I'm telling God that I don't trust that He has somthing else planned for me.

He has been very evident in my life recently and instead of being still and listening to Him, I've been trying to make it mean what I want. So I actually don't need to be confused and frustrated with God, I just need to listen and trust. If what I'm feeling is true and not completley because of my not wanting to let go then I will know when I need to know, and if I'm just not wanting to let go then that will be shown as well. Right now I need to let it be evident that I trust in Him.

Your will be done, not mine.

I am second

2011-03-13T13:55:00.000-07:00

I'm having trouble expressing what I want to say so bear with me...

Reflecting on my past I realized I had absolutely no idea how lost I really was, I realized just how naive I really was and still am for that matter. I thought I knew God because I prayed to Him and He answered my prayers, I thought God was a majestic being who loved me and therefore would do what I needed when I thought I needed it. I was inadvertently using God as a genie, "your wish is my command." This was both before and after I became a Christian. This caused confusion and frustration when I didn't get what I wanted, " Why do I feel alone, why do I still feel lost after I found Christ, why is my live harder now?"

I soon realized after much study, prayer and talking with respected friends and family it was my fault I was feeling this way. I was using God instead of Him using me, ie: the genie. I hadn't completley died to Him though I thought I had. My selfish and wicked flesh was still in charge. After being challenged by my friend and pastor (he didn't know he challenged me, but he did) I took a long hard look at my heart and motives. Man was that humbling, I had to force down the walls of pride, self controll, and denial. I found that not only had I not completly died to Christ I had no ieda who He was; this was much more painful to find out. I realized this was a bigger deal then I previously knew. Once I accepted my faults and laid them at His feet He has been revieling more of Himself to me. He is showing me I can't have joy with out Him, He is letting me realize He is enough, He is it. I no longer have to search for love, I no longer have to search for fullfilment, I no longer have to search for peace, my journey is over. Just because my journey is over doesn't mean I have no room for growth or learning, it just means I know I'm not just here, I'm here for God's purpose . I was loved first, I am second.

Transformation

2010-06-03T17:12:00.000-07:00

I have had the craziest, busiest life and have been feeling empty, unfulfilled, and like all the desicions I made were wrong. I now no longer feel this way, even though life poses the same questions and trials. The big change or transformation was giving myself to the Lord. I am now a true Jesus follower, or in other words a Christian. I have felt the love of Christ on a much deeper more powerful level than ever before, it is truly amazing the changes I've witnessed in my dad and sister,Jade, as they too have surrendered thier lives to the Lord.

I have also come to know that I have been called to go to Belize City, off the Panama Cannal in Central America. Last Sunday a couple came down to talk about thier ministry in Belize, they were sharing stories and letting us know what was going on while they've been there. At the end they asked us for a donation (buying a T-shirt) to help support the camp and church they have there. As I was talking to the lady selling the shirts I felt prompted to ask more questions about the ministry, and that turned into asking what I could do to help. I told her I wanted to pray about going and being of help. She gave me her and her husbands e-mail address and phone number so we could keep in touch. I also asked my Pastor to pray for me, to help me know what I needed to do with my life at this point in it( not specicaly about going to Belize, but keeping that in mind). Earlier this week I e-mailed Lisa to tell her that I do want to go, and that I needed more information,ie: finances, food, shelter...., she said she would call me back and let me know the details Thursday (today) or Friday.

I am truley excited about this trip, I found that I will be introduced to 7 different languages, and will be discipling the Lords word to all ages and tongues (well 7 anyway) : ) I will be coming up with the majority of the money but, my Pastor said the church would be more than willing to help out. So needless to say I will be saving all my pennies, it will be roughly 7,200 for the year. Yes, I will be going for a year!

Through all the questioning and praying I also noticed I was in a relationship (with Paul) that was not right in timing, it was just to soon for me to so commited this early after my divorce, and during this time of my life. Our relationship was truly beautiful, and so I hope it is what God has planned for me, but if not I know I will have a truly beautiful relationship agian, as will he.

I feel so very blessed to have the family I do, and love you all so much. I pray for you all, and hope all is well. I am also so grateful for my mom and dad who showed me the true Gospel of Christ.

God Bless,

Amber.

Soo many changes

2009-12-29T15:55:00.000-08:00

First I'd like to apologize to you all for not keeping you updated as promised. I am alive and well, lol..
I guess I'll start with the most drastic change, as you all may have known I was living with my aunt and uncle in Queen Creek, Arizona due to my separation from Kenny. Now, the divorce is final and I am with my family again, after 9 years, living in Utah. I've been here for about a month.
The hardest part about the move was leaving my job, I learned so much and loved everyone I worked with. I still keep in touch with them, and a couple of my patients. A good thing did come from leaving my job tho, I have 5 doctors that have or will give me a letter of reccomendation to where ever I apply. I was also given a name of a doctor to apply for up here, which has turned out good so far, but is incomplete at the moment.
Before I moved to Utah I was presented with an amazing financial vehicle that I took advantage of. With this business I am doing fairly well at the moment, and have amazing potential for further growth and success. I have a link posted on my Facebook notes for my business website; see what's new!
Since I've been here in Utah I have been enjoying myself by hanging out with my family and sleeping in, hehe. I met Devin and Crystal's neighbor, Paul and have been hanging out with him too, some of you met him at Grandma's house, but most already knew him from previous events. Although I am not ready to commit to any type of relationship besides just going on dates, we spend quite a bit of time together. Since I, and my mom, dad, and sisters think it is important to divide my time between other guys (and "me time") , I am going to meet and go on dates with more people. This will be easier to do when I get a job and am introduced to more people.
I am not used to this and find it very exciting, but also scary, I've never really dated before so I don't know what it's like, or what to expect. I really don't want to end up waiting for guys to call, waiting by the phone...Or even worse, I think, staying single for ever and not finding Mr. Right till I'm 80. OMGosh, what if I become the single lady in an apartment with like 6 cats!! scary...
I honestly don't think that would happen, it wouldn't, but it is still scary to think about.
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Christmas was very enjoyable with my family. The best part besides actually being with my family, was seeing their faces when they opened their gifts! I wish I had a camera so I could have captured the moments. I was so very thankful to be able to spend Christmas with my family this year, it's been way to long.
I am excited to start a new year, it goes great with me starting a new life. I'm excited to see where the Lord brings me. I hope you all enjoy yourselves. Your in my daily prayers, I love you all so much. I'll keep in touch

Amber

Sacaton, Gila River Health Care

2009-08-05T19:16:00.000-07:00

I have been working for Gila River Health Care in the Podiatry Department since July 20th, and have been enjoying it very much. The staff and I get along well, and I really like the patients there. There have been some NASTY things I've seen, but all in all I've been able to stomach it, I guess that doesn't sat much though cuz I can handle more than most of you... One thing I want to share that I think will be ok for all readers without giving warning is, the other day a lady came in with a slashed Achilles heel. It had to be stapled closed (which was done by someone outside our office) , and we had to take them out, I wish I could have, but the doc did it. Her foot was just hanging there, it was sooo crazy, craziest thing I've seen!! The lady was being reckless and stupid on a motorcycle, IDK how it happened. I'm sure she lied anyway.

I have learned soo much about the history and culture of these people, and it is so amazing, and sad. I wish they (the majority of the population) cared more about the reservations upkeep and apparel. It is a work in progress though, which I was glad to hear.

I love that I am looked at as a member of the community (to an extent) because I work there, it makes it easier to take care of the patients since they're so close knit with their families.

Well other than that, no much has changed. I am thinking about moving out in a month or so, when I've saved enough money to get my own place, which will most likely be close to Jade and Joey.. I will keep you updated..

I love you all and hope all is well, your all in my prayers..

Love,

Amber

Civic Del Sol

2009-06-18T19:23:00.000-07:00

I had been having problem after problem with my "fabulous" Mustang, and since I have yet to find a job I could not keep paying (asking my parents for money) for the stupid thing. While my parents came down for the miracle of Ethan( Jade and Joey's newest addition), they heard ofthe shape the car was in and next thing I new my dad and I are looking online for used cars!! I didn't get one online cuz my dad decided to go to a dealershp to look for trucks and ended up buying me a '95 Civic Del Sol!
Because I have never driven a stick shift, my mom dad- mainly my dad- tought me how to drive it. After many times dumping the clutch, or not giving it enough gas at the proper time, and whatever else I was doing wrong, I FINALLY got the hang of it and I am now pretty good at it, although I have to admit I still kill it sometimes, but mostly I squeel the tires, hehe. I will eventuallyget pictures of it to put on here, but right now it needs a bath and waxing.
Thank you mom and dad!!!
Other than that nothing has really changed, Kenny and I are in counsoling, we'll see how that goes......

A little Update

2009-05-04T09:53:00.000-07:00

I bought a 93 Ford Mustang for $1000 on craigslist-a site here in AZ. He said he wanted to sell it for 1,250, but his wife put it on the Internet for 1000, so he had to sell it at that price because before he changed it I saw it at that price, yea me!! There is a little issue where the car doesn't like to go into 2nd gear at a normal speed, so I am taking it to a mechanic Dan knows to check it out. If it is something I am going to have to spend money on I am going to sell it. Since I bought it with no tail light, no passenger side mirror, and bad front tires I can sell it for more than I bought it, now that I've fixed those problems. We'll see....
Kenny and I are still separated, therefore I am still at Dan and Sheri's. I am getting counsel from my bishop, he is amazing. I am trying to figure out what direction to go...
On a plus side, I have noticed a drastic change in his way of thinking, in a few different areas. I talked to his bishop and he has also told me there is a change in him. I am very thankful for and proud of his change of heart. Whether or not this works out, his change of heart will be a blessing.
There is not to much more to talk about, I will update when there is more. Love you all, thank you soo much for you prayers and concerns.

Easter update

2009-04-12T16:39:00.000-07:00

I want to start by telling you all, that knew the situation, both Kenny and I are going back to church and have stronger testimonies. The is however some not so good news, Kenny and I have separated, I am at my aunt and uncle, Dan and Sherri's home, along with the Leonard's. I have been here for one week. I am not going to go into all the details, but I want everyone to know that we are both getting counsel from our bishop and family. I am going to be here until further notice, which will be quite awhile. I would love all your prayers, and so would Kenny. As you may have noticed we are not necessarily on bad terms. I will let you know when we have come to a result.
Ok now Easter, I had a good time at church and really felt that this is where I belong, I know the gospel is true, I know the priesthood, and the atonment are real. My testimony is not as strong in some areas, but I know with faith and determination, it will be wholer, is that a word, hehe. I am thankfull for our Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ, and all they left here for our learning. I am gratefull for the knowledge I have of the atonment and of the gospel, I am humbled by all the terrible things the Lord had to endure for our sakes. It is also humbling to me to know that there were/are so many prophets who withstood the tortures, and tribulations of non-believers and the confused. I pray for all of us seeking counsel and answered prayers, for all of us second guessing our testimonies and what we believe. We will be heard and we will be answered. Hold to the rod, keep on the straight and narrow, be an EXAMPLE.
Jade had a little scare, we thought the baby was coming early! She had a severe urinary tract infection, kidney infection which caused pre term labor. Luckily the doctors knew how to help and got the infection taken care of, however, they did not know how to take care of a pregnant women, therefore Jade was sent to a hospital with OBGYN's who knew how to handle her righ risk pregnancy, they told her she needed to stay until they got her stable and knew the baby was ok. It is day 2 and Jade is still inthe hospital but is now ok as well as the baby. Soo needless to say we didn't do much, as far as Easter eggs and bunnies and all that fun stuff. James still did get an Easter basket from Uncle/Grandpa and Aunt/Grandma Dan and Sherri (thats what Dan calls himself, because he isn't really his uncle, lol). I will keep you updated on Jade's situation.
Sorry I havn't been good about keeping my blog current, I have had a lot on my plate, I wanted to wait untill I knew what to say. I love you all soo much.......
HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY, WE ALL LOVE YOU........

More on Mer and Kenny

2009-02-01T11:58:00.000-08:00

Kenny is still at University of Phoenix registering people/ students in online schooling, in a division of UoP called Axia college. He believes this is where he is ment to be; while he was out of a job we had some friends from church come over to give him a blessing to help guide us in the right direction. After the blessing one of the brothers told him he worked at UoP and it was a great place with great beneits. Kenny applied got an interview and was hired, this process actually took about a month,it was so hard to wait! Once he got this job ourlives became much more relaxed, it was like everything started to fall into place. When he first started our stupid car was broken so his freinds from church were willing to give him a ride to work everyday for about 2 months!!
Outside of work Kenny keeps his spirits up by playing video games (always playing/getting new ones), going to the shooting range, he recently got his first gun, and spends time with his family. He hasn't changed much from the first day I met him, except his new found religon, which most days is pretty fun. He is very dedicated to me and our little 2 people family; He puts a lot of energy in us, I never thought I could mean so much to someone, outside of my family. He will be a great father someday. He is a lotof fun, I am thankful he's mine.
Kenny is also dedicated to our church and is always eager to learn more. He still finds things that are hard to overcome, things were just natural to him, he now has to change. I still have a hard time with things like that too, who doesn't?! He has a testimony that he hasn't shared yet, but I know it's there, growing in his heart.

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I am still working for Dr. Fowler, things have improved and somethings havenot changed, but I have become used to them, like being the only one working the backoffice. I really don't mind that too much though. It would however be really nice to be able to stay home when I'm not feeling so hot.
The coolest thing that has happened to me so far has been my primary kids,they are such sweet little spirits. My testimony grows everytime I teach them, I know this is true I cantell because how natural it is for them to understand and pickup on things. I am so glad I picked this age, I love my 6's.
My friend Christina got me hooked onthe Twilight series, I've read all but the last book and am more that 1/3 done with it. That's what we do after work to relax, Kenny playshis games and I sit next to him and read. We are also addicted to the T.V. series Lost. I thought it was dumb when I saw the shows on T.V. but when we watched it from the begining, I couldn't get enough; Kenny knewitwas going to be good.
I love you all and hope your 2009 is starting off great. Hope to see you soon.....

More on Mer and Kenny

2009-02-01T11:57:00.001-08:00

Welcoming a New Year : 2009

2009-01-12T18:06:00.000-08:00

Can you believe it, OMGosh (funny huh mom)! I can't, I was so amazed at how 2008 went by soo fast! Like most people I've talked to I'm glad it's over. Though I am glad for 3 events/blessings '08 offered, my new nephew, my new husband and, my husband's baptism/conversion. I guess I'm going to have to try harder to make this year better so I wont say I'm glad it's over, when the time comes.

NYE was different this year, Kenny and I did our own things; I went to my friend Christina's house and he was at Dougie and Chey's. We (Christina and I) watched some chick flicksand watchedthe ball drop, and had some quality girl talk time. Her husband is a peramedic, and was on call at the Mill Ave Block party, he had to work until 2 a.m.

I guess our Holidays weren't too eventfull this yr, lol.

My new inspiration is to not make NYE resolutions but promises to myself; make myself be happy, expect more from myself, be someones inspiration, be an example of rightous and goodness, make everyday count.

I love you all and hope this year is all that it is promised to be for you. May God bless us all.

Christmas!!

2008-12-29T19:03:00.000-08:00

Our Christmas, much like everyone else's this year, was small but eventfull. We spent most ofthe morning with eachother at home which was peacefull, once we figured out how the day was to be spent. Kenny's grandma and Uncle Brian hosted Christmas dinner at their home, also providing a turkey and sides. Chey(Dougie's girlfriend) made an awsome ham and brought sweet potatoe and a pecan pie!
We enjoyed peoples smiling faces as they opened up their presents shortly after dinner. Sorry I don't have a camera so I missed out on pics. Dang it..
I do wish I was able to experience Christmas at home this year but I did definatly enjoy the family I have here.
Our Christmas was not as hectic as some families but we don't have kids yet so that has a lot to do with it I'm sure. : ) I hope all of us enjoyed our Savoir's Birthday and remembered why we celebrate this ever so special day. I hope we get to keep this Holiday Season feeling all year this year, not forgetting to serve and have love for everyone. I love you all and wish you all a save and Happy New Year!
What are your New Years resolutions this year?

Is pizza ok?

2008-11-02T10:35:00.000-08:00

Well I had good intentions on feeding the missionaries a great sit down dinner, but then reality struck. I didn't have enough forks, plates, or ....food. I completely forgot to get something out, and I didn't realize it until half way through the day. After work I ran home to try and thaw out some chicken to make some quick tamales. It was already 5:00 they were going to be arriving at 6, there was no way I could thaw, cook and serve in 1 hour. I felt soo bad because we had to cancel once before, so I called and told them to go to there next meeting and I would have Domino's deliver so they could eat when they got home; They were OK with it. Shoow!

Our Primary Program went really well, it was very moving! We had people in the audience crying, it was beautiful. I knew it would go well. Our ward has a good bunch of kids, very strong little spirits. I am very proud of them. We had fun.

Kenny called the Car Dr. who told him it is still not done and wont be for awhile. I would love to take this guys car for about 2 months and tell him every weekend that he can expect it. Gosh!! Kenny said the part wasn't fixed so he had to put it back in the shop, and it would take as long as it takes to put it back together, once it gets out, AGAIN! Good thing we like asking Kenny's mom if we can use her car. : /

Our jobs are going good, Kenny is staying busy working accounts. He still loves it there, really enjoying himself. I am soo thankful for this job. He so desperately needed something he was both good at and would enjoy. We needed something that would pay well and offer great benefits, for both of us. This place is all that and much more. I can't wait to go back to school, Kenny either. I don't think either of us know what we're going back for though.

My job is still booboo but the Dr is out of town untill Nov. 16 so we'll have some time to chillax. I will beable to go home at 2 or 3 instead of 5 or 6. There is still lots of work to be done even though we wont have a schedule, we will just have time to do it now. Plus there is a lot to be done with this study I got thrown into. Hopefully there wont be too many walk ins.

I know I keep saying this but I think I am going to get another job. I stay because I like the patients and the Dr. I would feel bad leaving him with out an M.A. but it wouldn't be terrible if I put in my 2 weeks 1st. It would force him to look for someone. There are just too many things that have happened with my paychecks, I can't keep risking not getting paid correctly or not at all. They told me I wasn't going to get a raise because I was in a probationary period,that they neglected to tell me about, and since I asked for it because I was going to be the head M.A. they told me I don't get raises just because of position change. I was floored, are you kidding me, that's a freakin promotion. They don't want to look at it that way because Lori quit leaving them no choice. IDK and really IDC (I don't care), not anymore. Maybe I should put in my 2 weeks this week while I'll have it easy. We'll see, I have to find a replacement first.

I can not believe another year is passing, they are seemingly doing so faster and faster. Everything is coming up too, Christmas, James' Birthday, our Anniversary; Thanksgiving too but that one will be spent up here. I am soo excited to see you all again, how fun will Christmas be this year!! All of us together with our spouses and baby. I am soo anxious.

So Halloween has past, how was it for ya'll? Kenny and I literally did nothing, not even pass out candy. We only had one little goblin show up anyway. I hope yours was more eventful than ours.

O my gosh the time has come..I havethe internet!!

2008-10-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

8/15-17/08 “Cave Days’’…
The other day we were looking at our bills that are past due and some threatening to shut off and since the gas was already off I said, “O great, we‘re gunna have no gas, no electric, no water, no car we‘re gunna be living in the the… th Cave days’’…… It was really funny because I was being overly dramatic about it. Kenny thought it was really funny so he told his mom the next day on their way to work, so when I called Kenny later that day she asked me how living in the cave days was, they were in Linda’s car. lol
Don’t worry anyone we are doing ok, we just have to catch up on some bills we had while Kenny wasn’t working. Now that Kenny is working again we are doing fine and are planning on paying our rent a few months at a time so we can put money away for some of our goals. That’s how we used to do it, and we had a lot more spending money. I am really excited to have him working again, he is too although he is not totally enjoying it, he says it is like a “fake collections office” because of the system, and the way you have to collect payments. At all the other places you could say, ok pay your bill 3 mos. In advance and then you don’t have to worry about it (or whatever he says), but here you can’t do that, the system won’t allow you to put future payments in, so they have to call every mos. to make the payment. He can’t even do it one day in advance. I think that is stupid…and so does he. I think other than that he is liking it there. I know we are both thankful for it since when Linda originally told her boss about Kenny he said no because they were family and they don’t hire family members.
We are still praying for this job at University of Phoenix, they told him it would be about a week to ten days and it has been almost 2 wks. Kenny said he talked to his friend that works there and he told him it usually takes this long and not to worry, but he’ll ask around and try to see what the verdict is. I would be soo excited if he got this position it would be such a relieve, he would be making so much money, we would be able to save for our goals a lot quicker! Plus it would be a different pace for Kenny, he would be working with numbers and people that want to do something, instead of making them pay their bills, so it would be a lot of fun for him. A much more positive atmosphere, which would be good for him. I guess there are two people from our ward that work there.
The only problem I see with this job is it is in phoenix and our car is broken, so we have to come up with the money to get that looked at and fixed. We have no ides what is wrong with the thing… We’ll find out I guess
Well I am still liking my calling in primary, I really enjoy what the have to say, they are soo smart. Of course there are a few who I have to pay close attention too (for different reasons) but I love their little spirits. One little girl is soo shy she doesn’t really want to participate unless it is something the class is doing as a whole. I have another little girl who doesn’t want to stop talking. Last Sunday I had everyone tell how they “shined their light” the past week (does anyone know what that lesson was about), when it was her turn she started with, “The story starts with….” , and then did NOT want to end it. I even brought her up by me and explained that she needed to let the other kids tell their story, she just said, “well my sister…” I couldn’t believe it!! She is definitely a hand full. : )
I told the kids if they were good during opening exercises I would give them a prize, and 2 wks ago I did, but last week I couldn’t afford it. They were disappointed but I told them I wouldn’t be able to get one for them every Sunday so they just had to be good all the time just incase I was able to get them something. I think that will work IDK I guess I’ll find out this Sunday. I just went to the dollar store but they loved the prizes so I was happy.
Ok I am getting sleepy and mistyping everything now soo I am going to go to bed. I love you all… Mer and Kenny.

08/19-23/08 Game Day
We had the opportunity to go to the Diamond Backs Game. Kenny’s brother’s girlfriend got them for free but then couldn’t go, so she asked if we were interested!! It was so much fun. I haven’t been to a baseball game since I was in 5th (or 6th) grade, when I went with Hailey. I think you guys (Crystal, Jade, mom)
remember her.
The game was really good, since I didn’t know much about it Kenny had to tell me what was going on. They had a good game, they got 4 points in the 1st inning, I guess that’s quit a bit in baseball. We saw Adam Dunn make his 1st home run as a Diamond Back player, it was cool to see!! There were a couple other cool plays but I don’t remember what they were. We had great seats, we were about half way up and on the side of the dugout. We bought ice cream that was too much but really good. After we ate it we both agreed we should have gottin something “real” to eat. I had my eye on a ball park hot dog forever but then when the time came I got ice cream lol. O well, I’ll get one next time.
It was a fun date and we enjoyed ourselves. I had been looking forward to it for a while. Even though it was a good game and we were enjoying ourselves we decided we should go ½ way through the game. It started at 6:00 and it took 2 hours just to get ½ way through. Since we had to work in the morning we didn’t want to stay till 10:00 to watch the whole thing. I am glad we went.
Kenny was talking about getting season tickets to arena football, I guess there cheaper than NFL tickets and a faster pace/higher scoring game. I enjoy football so I think I would like to watch arena football. Plus it’s a good date night. We’ll see what happens.
Well, my visiting teaching partner’s husband came over today to look at the car, he said there were a few things wrong with it. He wasn’t sure he could help so he recommended a guy he knows. So again, we’ll see what happens.
I can’t believe Kimberly is married now, it has only been a few hours now but still!! Congrats cuz!! I am so sorry Kenny and I couldn’t be there to celebrate with you. I talked to grandma and she said it was a beautiful ceremony, and you were a beautiful bride. I hope I get some photos!! Thanks for the invitation!! I send you my love and our best wishes, CONGRATS!!
Thursday and Friday was my 1st time visit teaching! I really enjoyed it, I have a great partner. She has done this before so that helps a lot. One of the ladies we visit is a new sister in the ward, she seems really nice. Her boyfriend and her have 2 kids, she is trying to get him more involved in the church and slowing but surely she is. He went with her one time and said he would go again so… I told her I know what she is going through and if she needs my support or help I would be there. She lives 2 houses away from me. The other lady and her family are active and involved in church callings and activities. She has 3 kids and a new baby. I really like her, she is the primary secretary. She helps me a lot!
I am liking my calling and being a visit teacher, it gives me something to do and look forward to. It makes me feel important and like I am actually doing something useful, meaningful. I like it.
I will get back to you when more happens, next week one of our drug reps from work is taking Lori and I to Cheesecake Factory, so I’ll let you know how that goes. And Kenny’s birthday is on the 30th!! He will be 24. Wow that seems so old to us, I can’t believe it, I remember dreaming to be 16 so I could drive!! Anyways, I love you all talk to ya later.
08/26-31/2008 Cheesecake Factory Flop
We planed this dinner with one of our drug reps. a month in advance and it was still a bad day to do it. Lori wasn’t feeling well and I found out it was Helen’s (Kenny’s grandma) birthday. So we canceled. O well.
We still got to go out though, I guess for March Madness, another drug rep, had a contest, and our office won 1st, 2nd and 5th place. My manager won 1st which was tickets to the Diamondbacks game, the phlebotomist in our office won 2nd which was an office party, and Dr. Fowler won 5th place, but I don’ know what the prize was.
Since Lori’s last day was Friday, Gary (the phlebotomist) decided to use his office party prize for her going away party. We went to Applebee’s for drinks and appetizers. It was really fun! We only ordered a few appetizers but got like 6 more because the servers got the tables around us mixed up with ours, so we got all theirs too. We were happy but the other tables weren’t so pleased. So Lori and I took all the left over’s home, no one else wanted to take them soo
Now that Lori is gone I am going to be the only M.A in the office!! I am both excited and terrified at the same time. I like that I’ll be able to do things my way, but I’m scared that I don’t know what I’m doing enough to be alone. I know I just need to ask questions and have confidence in myself, that’s the hard part. I am constantly second guessing myself, and am usually right the first time. Plus I am getting thrown into a drug study that I don’t know a whole lot about. It’s not as involved as it used to be now though since the patient got cancer (not study related) and can’t take the drug being studied. Now all that’s left is blood draws, which I like to do, and a ton of paperwork, everyday that has a certain place to be filed in one of the 15 binders involved. O well, I guess I’ll get used to it. It will be a big plus to have on my resume. : )
The best thing that has happened all week was Kenny’s Birthday yesterday 08/30/08. He turned 24 this year. I told him the other day, “haha your closer to 30 than I am.” He didn’t like that too much. : ) I thought it was pretty funny though. Hehe. I am soo glad he got to enjoy himself, we didn’t do anything real big at all but at the end of the day it was pretty eventful. I made him two breakfast burritos, that were really good by the way. My Visiting Teacher and his Home Teacher came over (they’re married) to wish him a happy birthday with a plate of chocolate mint brownies, which were really good too.
My Visiting Teacher, Kristina stayed for about an hour and ½ just visiting and getting to know each other, she was just assigned to me. Her husband Richard, who Kenny already knew, had to leave right away for work, he’s an EMT. Since he works crazy hours and is sometimes gone 3-4 days out of the week, we don’t see him at church a lot, so it was nice he came over for a second to wish Kenny a happy birthday.
Kristina told us Richard was going to be gone a couple days and she usually has leftovers or peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for dinner, so I invited her over for a Sunday dinner. I am excited to have someone over.
Later that day I had Linda, Dougie, Chey and Bobby over for Kenny’s favorite dish I make, a creamy chicken casserole with broccoli. Everyone really liked it, yea! After dinner Dougie and Chey took us out to a movie, it was funny but I shouldn’t have watched it (it was rated R). So all in all it was a pretty good birthday, he said he didn’t want anything more.
OOO! One more really great thing that happened this week was Kenny got the job he has been waiting for; the one at University of Phoenix! He will be an Enrollment Councilor. He starts 9/9/08. We are both really excited for his new start. I really believe this is going to be great for him, this is a MUCH better atmosphere as far as who he is dealing with, and working with, he will be able to (I think) stay in a good mood and enjoy himself at work, which will be very nice. He will be making almost $6 more than he was at this place with his mom. That in itself is a major blessing. We will be able to get caught up and have a little more spending/playing money! YEA!
09/01-03/08 Labor Day…River Day
So Labor Day was really fun… We went to the Salt River with Dougie, Chey, and Terry. Everyone decided it would be the most fun to go on the 5 hour run, so
that’s what we did. Although we all enjoyed ourselves Chey and I were ready to get off the water in between exit 4 and 5. I was ready because I started not feeling well, plus I was in pain; We came to a place that was very narrow with rapids, my tube flipped and I smashed my spine on a rock, which gave me a nice bruise and a cut, not very deep but very painful. Kenny got a scratch on his arm, also not very deep, but it was long, and luckily not painful. Chey was getting heat stroke I think, she decided it would be ok if she only put sun block on her face, so needless to say she fried! Plus she was not drinking enough water.
I used a lot of sun screen and still got a sunburn, of course I always do. At least this one wasn’t as bad as the other ones. Hopefully I will keep the tan, hehe.
Ok … My first day by myself (09/02/08) was crazy, they said I did good though. I didn’t have a full schedule so I was able to stay on track pretty easily. The second day by myself I had a little bit fuller schedule, I still did well though! I was still able to keep on track and keep Dr. Fowler on time. It was harder and a little bit more hectic but kinda fun. I really like having my own space, it actually makes things less stressful. I keep my desk a lot less cluttered, which really helps too. I am still going to change some things when I get the time and the right equipment to do it.
I am anxious for tomorrow, my third day by myself, because the schedule is completely full!! These are the days it is hard to stay on schedule with 2 people, so we’ll see how I do. I am pretty confident I can do it. I will let you know how it goes!
I guess there isn’t that much to announce yet. I will write when there is. Love you all!!
09/04/08 Everyone’s Leaving!!!
My manager (Sandy) just told me that she is quitting, she found a job that will pay more in the same position. She told me she feels really bad about it because Lori just left, so the timing really sucks for Dr. Fowler, but she has to do what is best for her.
I am both excited for her and hate to see her leave. This makes me wonder if they told her she couldn‘t get a raise, because if that’s the case I highly doubt they’ll give me one. I don’t know what to think about this place anymore. I really don’t want to have to relearn how the office is run. Kenny told me to tell who ever they hire to learn how I’ve been doing things, I think I will because that’s only fair and should be expected. Well I have to go, talk to you soon, love ya’ll.
09/08-11/08 She’s not leaving!!!!
I am soo excited she’s going to stay! I guess she decided it wasn’t worth it to leave, the other place wasn’t going to pay her much better, plus she was feeling really guilty about leaving. She has worked for Dr. Fowler for about 2 years and they are pretty close.
She’s a good manager, I didn’t want to see her leave. And now I don’t have to learn anyone else’s little quirks. I have just gotten to understand hers.
The only thing that I am going to have to get used to is a new M.A., when they eventually hire someone. I do need the help but I am liking the space and how I have things set up at my desk (because we would have to share a desk). O well I guess I have to take the good with the bad. It would be nice to have someone there.
We rescheduled the Cheesecake Factory meeting, it was fun. I ordered the dinner special and an expensive cheesecake, and OMGosh was it good!! I was really excited that I could order whatever I wanted; I asked if there was a limit and she said she was allowed to spend a $100.00 per person! So I went all out. The dinner special was Mahi Mahi Mediterranean style, mmmmmmm. I wish you could just smell it!! It was the best Mahi I have ever had, so good. The cheesecake I ordered was the anniversary cake, which they had been perfecting for 30 years or how ever long they’ve been around. I was even allowed to order Kenny a cake, I got him a Snickers one. I had left over fish so he got to have that too.
The dinner was so she (a drug rep.) could show me her glucose meters. It was pretty interesting to see how they work, and how they are different from the others on the market. I was glad it was interesting. I guess I would have still enjoyed myself because of the food.
Ok so we got a call from the guy fixing our car and evidently he fixed the problem, the water pump, but when he went to start it the dumb thing still wouldn’t start!! He looked in the engine and saw the head gasket was blown!! So we‘re still going to spend $1500, even with Mike (a friends friend from church) fixing it.
The really good thing is if we went to a shop we would have paid that just for the water pump, because of the make and model. A couple places Kenny called would not even do it because of the make and model! So it is a huge blessing we have him working on it. We didn’t quit see it that way when we first got the news because we are just now getting Kenny’s big checks and we have to spend it on the car, which puts us back a bit on what we had planned for it. It’s a good thing we have the money this time though!!
So it has been 3 full weeks by myself, I have been doing really well. I asked for a raise so we’ll see if I get it my next paycheck. The general manager asked my manger if she thought I deserved one, and of course she told her I did, so we’ll see. I will be pretty upset if I don’t get it because I work really hard. My manager and the Dr. have told me.
They confirmed that I am expected to take over the treat study, I will have my first appointment with him Monday the 22. I am both excited and real nervous, I have never been involved in any kind of study and have no idea what to expect. Lori told me it isn’t too big of a deal but there is a lot that has to be done. The study coordinator said she will help me with any questions I have, so at least I will have the help I need. My manager has very little involvement in it and what she does know is blind to me and visa versa. I’ll let you know how my first visit goes.
09/16/08 Another Game Day
It was about 20 min before the end of the day when Dr. Fowler asked me if I wanted to go to a Diamond Backs game that night! I guess he wasn’t able to go so he asked if Kenny and I wanted to! Wow huh! But unfortunately when I got home I found out that Kenny wasn’t feeling well. So I asked if Kristina wanted to go with me. We went and had a good time.
When we got there it was already in the 3rd inning and it was 0 to 0. Right when we sat down they got a home run, it was pretty exciting. The guy next to us was like, “nice of you to join us.” We thought that was funny.
Our seats were amazing, we were on the second tier looking right at the pitcher’s mound! We had to go up an escalator to get to them, when we went through the doors there was an usher to guide us to our seats. I felt like I was top notch, it was fun. Last time when I went with Kenny we looked up at the cables that the birds were on, here we were level with them!
I had my first official Ball Park Hotdog, I didn’t get all the fun toppings on it like I when Kenny and I went but it was still pretty good. I think what I saw last time was a brot because it was huge; I have to get one of those, they look soo good. If your going to spend the money you gatta go all out, we did get cheese fries though!
Kristina and I decided to stay for the whole game, it was a good thing too because we would have missed the 2nd home run. They would have won with the 1st one because the other team didn’t even score. So ending score 2-0.
9/23/2008 OUCH! KENNY!!
3rd degree AC separation (acromioclavicular) formally known as a separated shoulder. The P.A. told us he ruptured his disc separating the clavicle. He has to see a specialist to determine if surgery is necessary or just physical therapy. They said surgery was most likely not going to happen but only the specialist could say.
The next day I asked Sandy who to go to, since we refer out a lot for things like this. She gave me a Dr.’s name and called them to see if they would give me some sort of discount since I work there and we use them all the time. They said they could help but it would still be $190 down, which includes an x-ray.
Of course Kenny wouldn’t go, I could have had an appt. for him that day. He felt it wasn’t necessary, and too much money. He still has 2 wks to get in before it starts re-growing. I guess we’ll see what happens. He has some pain killers so that helps him, sort of. Men…(maybe just Kenny) : )
09/27/2008 Relief Society Lunch in
This was the first R.S. meeting I have attended, I had an amazing experience. Kristina and Natalie (the ward missionary, who was at Kenny’s baptism) picked me up. We met up with Natalie’s sisters, mom and grandma. The food was great, just little sandwiches and salads and yummy desserts. The stake made quillos for needy kids to cuddle up and read with, they were all on display and they also had a sign up booth to read with kids at an elementary school. Along with the quillo’s were pictures in a slideshow of everyone who helped make them, it was pretty neat.
I enjoyed the company and the atmosphere. I love church get togethers now. Who’da thunk it. I wish I would have thought to bring a journal though, because now I don’t remember all the talks. I do remember feeling inspired to be a better example of an LDS woman. It made me want to try harder to get a hold of the people I visit teach. I really admired the first lady who spoke, I can’t remember her, or anyone’s name for that matter, she caught and kept my attention. I thoroughly admired her talk; I liked how she used personal stories. I would love to see how you guys felt about this conference!
09/28/2008 Primary Performance Rehearsal
The whole primary is going to be performing in a couple weeks so today we rehearsed, it was so cute! Some kids have speaking parts and all of them sing; I even have to sing. We have been practicing these songs for about a month. In my opinion they have it down, it is going to be soo good.
Our Primary Presidents made them a deal, if they practiced all the songs and did well during rehearsals they could have an ice cream party. Of course the kids loved that idea! They have some cute ideas to get these kids into things, they do it well to. I am excited to see how well it turns out, I’ll let you know.

09/30/2008 OK get it done already!!
Kenny called the guy fixing our car to see if he got it out of the machinists shop yet, since we were supposed to pay him to get it out. He tells us that he hasn’t even put it in, and it will take about a week to do when he gets it out. AAAHH, This was the week it was supposed to be being worked on.
So Kenny called around to see if someone else could get it done sooner. He found that it could be done sooner but not at all cheaper, lowest was 17, highest was 2,300! I figured the guy knows this and is taking his sweet time. I also found out that he isn’t some one from the ward, he is someone a friend from the ward goes to with his cars.
We just want this mess to be over with already. We have other things to spend our money on. O well, We are still grateful, it is still a blessing.

10/01/2008 Job Status: Mine and Kenny’s
Kenny is still loving his job and is excited to go everyday. As soon as we get this car fixed he will like his job a whole lot more since he wont have to get up so early to catch a ride. Right now he is waking up at 4:00 leaving at 4:30 a.m.. At least now he can get dressed by himself, it was really hard when he first hurt his shoulder.
He is doing really well, I don’t think he has completely enrolled some one yet be he has a few he is working on. Like this one guy he’s talking to has a lot of ambition and seems eager to start. He was willing to wait at a library (for internet access) until Kenny could call him back, of course Kenny told him to just call him when he got there but that shows dedication.
There’s quit a few things Kenny is happy with here, he can talk on his cell phone at his desk, he isn’t rushed to get off the phone with potential students, he can take an hour or more lunch as long as his numbers are up (which he rarely does because he wants to stay on the phone), he has a ginormous desk and a lot of leg/arm space, he likes his co-workers and management, though he did say his manager was getting on his nerves the other day. I am soo glad he found this job, it was a blessing in so many ways. We are able to go to school with discount prices, him free me 80% off! So we are planning on going back. I don’t know what I want to go back for yet, I don’t think he does either. We have enough time to think about it still.
My job is still the same as far as me being the only M.A.. I don’t know if I mentioned it before but we had to get another phlebotomist because Senora Quest pulled the lab, so we were without one for about 2 weeks. Now we have Lab Corp coming in on Friday ready to draw Monday. I am so excited to have a phleb. Again, I don’t like hearing people complaining about the inconvenience, I know, trust me I know how inconvenient it is!
The lady coming in was there before with a different company so she already knows most the patients and how the office runs, which is a huge plus. I am excited to meet her, Sandy talks good about her.
I still haven’t heard about my raise yet, so I was curious to see what I got, because I got paid today. Well guess what I got a $20.00 check, total! It looks like I only got paid for my overtime because where it says hourly it says $0.00! How crazy is that? I couldn’t believe it! I’m glad I get paid decent overtime but I would prefer my hourly included in that! I guess I shouldn’t ask for a raise huh, that’s what I get?!
I really hate how they mess with my checks like this, I really like working for him, I enjoy the patients too. They’re all making sure I’m not going any where because I guess a lot of M.A.’s have come and gone. Hmmm?
It may be time for me to start looking else where, now that we’re stable with Kenny’s new job. I would hate to leave but at the same time I think it may be for the best. I would wait until he hires some one, which won’t be until after Nov.
I am tired of talking about my job now…

10/02/2008 Good Job Terry, Go BOBCATS!!
So the first game Kenny and I had to miss, on account of Kenny’s arm, his high school football team wins. We felt bad we missed. I don’t even remember the score, oops. O well, GO BOBCATS!!
10/4-5/2008 “Trash Room”/Conference
Early Saturday morning Kristina, Richard and I went to the dog park to get out and enjoy the weather. We had a blast, mainly Dee-Bo and I. I loved all the other types of dogs there, it was fun to watch them all play with each other. OMGosh it was soo funny, there were 2 beautiful and huge, Great Danes, Dee-Bo thought he would politely show them who was boss. He runs up to him and barks up at him! This dog looks down and blows out this deep roar of a bark putting Dee-Bo right back in his place. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen. So then Dee-Bo starts walking around and under him, with ease, to kind of gain some dignity back, I think he realized just how big these dogs really are.
Kristina and Richard’s dog gets along well with Dee-Bo ever since she stayed at our house one night, which is another reason we went to the park. We thought it would be fun for them to play together, they didn’t even care about each other when they saw all the other dogs to play with. O well they had fun anyways.
So when I get home in the afternoon I take about an hour nap, during this time Bobby comes over. He goes in his play room we have set up for him and finds a red vines container I put in there thinking he could put toys or whatever in it. When he sees it he takes it to Kenny and says, “what is this doing in my room, my room is not the trash room!” Kenny cracks up and tells it I had gotten it for him to put stuff in then he got excited about it. Kenny points out to him that it has a lid so things don’t come out of it. So what does he do, he puts water in it, and says “yea huh this will come out.”
So that was the story I got when woke up. I thought it was soo cute! He is really particular about that room because it’s all his, he likes to keep his area clean. He’ll bring toys over from his house to play with and posters from school to hang upon the walls. He was soo thrilled to have his own room at our house when we first got this house.
How many of you enjoyed conference as much as I did!? I really enjoyed it this time. I guess you get more out of it when you pay attention. I got to watch it with a few people too, I watched some of it with Kenny, Kristina and Dan and Sherri. It was fun and revitalizing. I can’t quote anything that made it that way but I remember feeling so. I guess I’ll have to read it in the enzyne, then I’ll be able to quote and remember the names.
10/11/2008 Cooke Update
So I still have not heard about my check being fixed! The lady who writes the checks lives in California (and is the Dr.’s wife) so I faxed over my pay stub and e-mailed her asking when I could expect my check. I didn’t hear anything from her so I wrote her a letter asking her the same thing and faxed it to her since Sandy said she most likely checks her faxes more often than her e-mails.
Wednesday comes and she e-mails Sandy asking her what I meant by fixing my check!! I couldn’t believe it, I faxed over the stub which has all the information you need. Then Sandy tells me well you weren’t very specific in you letter or e-mails, so maybe you should re write it telling her what happened! UUH HELLOOO PEOPLE I DID NOT GET PAID, FIX IT! I took Sandy’s advise and told her I only got paid for my overtime because the hourly wage said $0.00. I wait until the end of the day to get a response and…nothing. Sandy said she would ask her what was going on, so hopefully I will be getting better answer on Monday.
So now it has been 2 weeks and a new paycheck is due Wednesday. How much do you want to bet I don’t get my money until then. I really wonder about this place. I must enjoy working my butt off for free because I keep doing it.
Our car is still not done.
Kenny’s shoulder is still hurting since he wont go to a specialist. He did try once but his ride was late leaving from work so he missed the appointment. He gets off on time Tuesdays but that’s the day the Dr sets aside for surgeries. I recommended he go see a different Dr than the one I originally set up, but…
He said it was getting better and he was able to move it more, so he wasn’t to worried about it any more. I said okaay but if it isn’t healing right your shoulder will always hurt you. So what happens, a couple days later his shoulder is hurting him all day, he can’t move it as far. What do you do??
Well on a different note, we went shopping for Dee-Bo today getting him good food, so he will get back to his normal self again, cheap food takes all his energy and makes him melancholy. His coat also dulls down as well as his teeth getting excess build up. Anyway, We got him small treats and a ginormus bone! We think it is a calf bone or something, it’s huge. He loves that thing, it was really cute watching him with it. I guess a piece of it wasn’t coming off as he wanted it too because all of a sudden we hear him bark at it, Kenny was rolling, he thought that was the funniest thing ever.
Seeing how it is 1:13 a.m. I should go to bed. O our Primary Program is 10/26, I’ll let you know how it goes, I am so excited about it, they are soo cute!
Love ya’ll, MerBer.
10/19/2008 Just a little update
I finally got my check! Since Sandy wrote it they couldn’t take out the taxes, so I got $800 instead of $730! The amount of money I got was cool, but I wonder if they’ll put it on my w2’s or not? I better not get screwed on that deal too. I’ll have to ask Sandy tomorrow, see if she’ll know or tell me.
The newest bump in the road is our new phlebotomist, she is very annoying. I think she is testing my limits. She used to work there 2 years ago so she thinks she knows how the office runs. I feel she came in too comfortable. She and I will have some things too work out I guess. It is good to have a phleb. in the office again though. My patients are happy again which makes my job a lot easier.
Well we got news on the car! The guy said the head (the head gasket blew) is in the shop being re-machined, when that parts fixed it will take him about a week to put back together. We should have our car Friday, should have. We should also have our cable/internet by then too! So you guys will be reading my whole story in one entry. Sorry it’s so long, I just didn’t want to miss anything. And I would never remember all of this.
Next week is the Primary Program! I wish I could record it somehow so you guys could see it. We had our last practice today, they did so good. Of course they were more rambunctious than they’ll be during the real thing because there parents weren’t there watching, but all in all they did great. After this they have the ice cream party! We are all excited about that.
So Halloween is 2 weeks away, isn’t that nuts! This year has flown by. James is one years old, Kenny and I have been married a year, Kenny has been a member of the church a year! Can you believe it! Anyways, Has anyone decided on what to be for Halloween, We haven’t yet. I don’t think Kenny will dress up but I want to do a couples costume I think that would be so cute. I have always wanted to do that.
Well I have to go to bed, this week kicked my butt. Goodnight love ya’ll, see ya soon.

Thanks for reading ,
I love you and will be seeing you Christmas!

Memory Lane

2008-08-11T13:46:00.000-07:00

I will update later but for now...
Let's walk down Memory Lane and play,

Memory Tag...

Step 1: As a comment on my blog, leave a memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew/know me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

Step 2: Re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory for you. It's actually pretty fun to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one for you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments!

Utah Trip

2008-07-06T19:25:00.000-07:00

Kenny and I had so much fun in UT, we really appreciated the hospitality and every ones efforts to make the most of our trip, especially towards Kenny since it was his first time there. He especially had a great time and loved to meet everyone and see family he had met before. He really loves that little baby. We had so much fun with him, I don't think that was hard for anyone to see though. LOL

We really enjoyed the Temple and all the other buildings, Kenny really enjoyed the Conference Center. I think that was one of the first ones he mentioned when he was talking to his mom, plus the acoustics demonstration, he loved that. He was also amazed that he could get to the mountains n less than 15 mins. He loved being able to play in the snow in his shorts!!

I loved every min of it, I really enjoyed the BBQ and all the effort put into it by my parents, I was really glad that Devin was there too, I know you had a lot on your plate. It meant a lot that you came even though there was a deadline you had to meet. We both thought the burgers were great and loved he potato salad, mom you make the greatest potato salad in the world, I don't like any others, seriously.

I am soo thankful to Kathy, Grandma and Uncle Mike who helped with the cost of the plane tickets, since Kathy wanted to give us a great belated wedding present. Which it was, thanks soo much.

O I almost forgot about the Texas Hold 'em we played all night, that was pretty fun. I thought it was funny that we were playing wrong the whole time, and Kathy should have lost instead of my dad. It was kinda sad though when we found out. She was bummed that she won with the wrong rules, I guess she really wanted that win.

I wish I had pics to put on here, but I guess you all know the efforts, you were all there. lol.

Well, we really had a fun time. I love you all and hope to see you soon.

Daddy Date

2008-06-22T17:19:00.000-07:00

Dad came to AZ for a couple days on a business trip, but had some time he was able to spend with us. We had fun, the first day we went to On the Border for a really good dinner, with Sherri Dad and Kenny( Dan was at the temple) . We stayed there for awhile just talking and reminiscing. It was cool to hear all the stories.
The second day dad picked us up and went to Dan and Sherri's house. We went to a really good Chinese place, they have really yummy crab puffs. Then we rented Fool's Gold, it was pretty good. Kenny even thought so too.We stayed the night there and slept in the living room, it was fun.
We got dropped off after we dropped off dad at the airport.

I hope the weekend we're in UT doesn't go by that fast.

I guess that's all I had to share.
See ya soon! Love ya

Puppies!!

2008-06-08T20:01:00.000-07:00

Ginger, Linda's dog, FINALY had her puppies!! They are soo cute and little, they look just like Kimbo, Dee-bo's brother. Ginger had a liter of 7.I watch all their births except 2, what an experience it was too. I havn't ever seen real life birth before, even though it was a dog it was still a miracle. There are two lightones and therestare dark brindle, soooo cute all of them. One almost died, he was born without the sac and wasn't breathing or moving, like on 101 Dalmations Linda started rubbing his little belly and just like that life was back and he started breathing! It was amazing!

I wanted to share a poem that was in Thelma's remembrance, but as I was typing decided not to, maybe it was to personal to the family. It was really beautiful though. If you have a chance to look up a poem called The Dash you should, this one was shared at the funeral to but it wasn't made up by the family so I think this one is ok to share. I just don't know it by heart, so you have to look it up.

Well not much exciting has happened, except that Kathy and Uncle Mike got Kenny and I tickets to come up for the weekend. We will be there Thursday the 26 at about 10:30 p.m. until Sunday about 3 p.m. So I am more than thrilled!! I think Kenny is excited to, he hasn't been to UT yet and hasn't met P&D either!! This is going to be soo fun, I can't wait, I have a count down on my calender at work. LOL!

I am having a difficult time now, with Kenny not having a job yet, though not having money does pretty much suck, that is not why. Kenny has been looking and trying almost every day, no one has returned his calls or e-mails, anything. I don't know if I am just home sick or what, but I'm thinking maybe we are supposed to move to UT. I asked to receive a blessing when we arrive so that maybe our prayers will be answered. I haven't talked to Kenny about this yet but a while ago Kenny mentioned something about him feeling like it would be a good idea to move to CO.? IDK why and neither does he, so that is another question I have, are we supposed to move and I know that, so I am automatically saying/think of UT, but we're supposed to go to CO? IDK?

Well I guess I'll find out soon enough, and then so will you.

Amber's news

2008-06-03T18:59:00.000-07:00

I guess I thought I had more to talk about than I really do. I still like my job but am having second thoughts about staying in this profession, but than other days I want to go back to school to try to be a nurse so IDK!? I guess I feel that way sometimes because I haven't been an m.a for very long, but I still feel I should know a lot of the things I don't. It's just irritating to me. I also get scared because if the big mistakes I make don't get caught I could cause the practice a lot of money or even worse I could kill someone. For example the other day I wrote a prescription for potassium as mg when it should have been mEq which is a significantly smaller dose, and that much potassium could have killed the Pt if it was (DAW)dispensed as written. It's scary how much life you have in your hands.

Nothing in relation to what I was just talking about but Dr's mom just died last night, she was (DX) diagnosed with failure to thrive a few days ago. He seems to be handling it all well, but I think that's because he is the only child and has a lot to take care of. He hasn't allowed himself the time to grieve yet. She was such a sweet old lady, I will miss her; she was one of our Pts so I knew her well, she even welcomed me into the family when I told her I was working there full time. Her boyfriend is in so much pain, I really feel for this family, they are all such neat people. Keep them in your prayers while they are grieving. Thank you. The really weird thing is that last night, early morning I jolted waking myself up, and said, O no Dr. Fowler, at that time I knew she was gone. When I got to work today the office manager confirmed it. Today was a really sad day.

Well anyway, I guess I just didn't think it would be that big of a deal to me when she passed. I guess I meant something to her?...

You know, this makes me think of how lucky my family and I really are to have the gospel in our lives and to know that we have the keys to be sealed so we really will be together when we die. That is soo comforting to me. I feel for the people who think they will be with their family but haven't been sealed. Can you imagine the shock? And then what if a family member of theirs did not want to except the truth after death, the family wouldn't be able to be with them. I am truly thankful I am aware of the truth and am doing what I can to keep our covenant.

Kenny is still looking for a job, filling out apps on line and in person. IDK why it is taking this long for him to find a job, he has never had a problem before. I guess it has to do with him cutting out the collection jobs?.. That cuts the opportunities in half almost, because we're inAZ the collection state.

I am so tired now, so I am going to sleep. I love you all soo much. Goodnight and good dreams.

Mer

It's been awile

2008-05-13T18:56:00.000-07:00

Hi we finally got the car back, the bishop gave us the money we wold have to pay to get the car off the yard after we've paid for the insurance, registration and the court paper we had to pay for just to get the registration. So now Kenny is looking into getting a job at Cox Communications, he filled out an application already, but he has to have a truck (they don't provide them). He may get a job just to pay for the truck and then go with Cox. I kinda think that's silly but he really wants to work with Cox, so I guess it's worth it. I can't wait for him to finally be doing something he wants to be doing!! I hated when he was a bill collector, he was always so stressed out and angry after work. I wouldn't mind him having a truck either, cuz then I would get the car!! Hehe.. So now we gatta find a good deal on a truck. Thanks for the advice mom,we'll try Carmax first.
I have been doing well at work, for the most part I think I've got it, but there are still things I need to learn. We're supposed to be slowing down soon so I should have the extra time I need to learn some stuff.
Someone at my job is having a really hard time right now with her son and her home, I just thought it would be nice if we could pray for her to give her a little shuv. She has to find a new apt. or house because her son got her evicted, needless to say she kicked him out!!
I don't really have that much to catch up on I guess. Sorry it took so long for me to update...love ya'll.

Just Catchin Up

2008-04-25T23:32:00.000-07:00

I still like my job and am still having fun with it. It is a lot of work and is very demanding. I have to be quick and on time,which can be hard at times. Lorie is still helping me and is being pretty patient with me,she says I learn andpick things upfast so thats good. I can't imagine how the other girl before me could have the same q's after 2 years! Lorie thinks I'll be better than her, she already thinks I do a lot of things better than her. I'm bragging...
Man, today the Dr had prescribed something to a Pt and like 3 hrs later we get a call from the FDA telling us it had just been recalled!! Crazy huh, we couldn't believe it.
The other day I had to do an ABI, it's where you take the bp on both their arms and thier ankles and divide the #'s to see how well their blood is pumping through their legs, it checks for embolisms (blood clots), and this guys feet stunk soo bad I thought I was going to pass out PEEUUW. I never wanted a nose plug soo bad before. There are a few procedures we get to do, we do EKG, ABI, MMSE which is a memory test, and medicine consults. We have to tell/ show them how/when to take thier meds. We have Fortieo ( I think I spelled that wrong) which is an inj for your bones, it's the only drug that has been clinicly proven to grow/rebuild bone. The Dr still has them on calcium and vit D while on this. The Pt has to be instructed by us and a video,which we show them , on how and why theyhave to take this RX. Did you know that ca can not absorb in your bone without vitD? I didn't know that.
Kenny and I are doing well, we don't do much but we have fun still. I come home from work, lounge around for awhile, then cook dinner. We have a few shows, I got him hooked on CSI and all those kinds of shows. He even likes Reba!!
We are still waiting on getting his stupid car, every time he goes to get it something has to be done first, and OFCOURSE they don't tell you everything all up front, you have to find out piece by piece. So were waiting for my next check and we'll go get it hopefully.
Anyways, Kenny is doing real well at home, he helps me by cleaning up during the day, and doing the laundry. I really appreciate his help, it makes Saturday cleaning a lot easier. I deep clean the house every Saturday. I kinda like him being home...
Well Iam exausted and my feet feel like they're going to fall off, soo I am going to go lay down.. I love you all and hope to see you soon. Hope your all healthy and doing well.....xoxoxoxoxoxo

My new job!!// Jibber Jabber

2008-04-10T23:38:00.000-07:00

I dont have too much to say but do have news about my new job!!!! It is going really well so far( only 4 days ), it is a lot to take in, but I think I can handle it. The lady I'm working with is real good with me, she is already teaching me alot, she is really smart!!! The patients that come in are older and have about 6 diagnoses, and about 10-15 RX (prescriptions)!!! They mainly have high BP, Diabetes or both. They are nice and easy to get along with, for the most part. There are a lot of things I have to, and be able to do automaticly, but I think one of the main things I'm gong to have trouble with is thier RX and knowing what they are for. The other thing is knowing all the codes that the Dr. uses when he orders labs. I am gong to be studing a lot this weekend and probably a few weekends after this!!
The Dr. does all the diabetic testing and treatment there, so we have to learn a lot about it. He has the Pts that are just finding out they have diabetes watch a movie on why you have it, what your body is doing, or not doing, and how to take care of yourself. He also has us (well not me yet) explain it to them in depth using a popster. He is a very thurough, very smart Dr., and really does care about his Pts. I like him alot because you can ask him questions and talktohim like a normal person, he isn't pompus or boastfull. I like that because I really need the one on one and have a lot of questions!!! He even eats lunch us, he's pretty cool.
Well I cleaned my whole house yesturday, mopped the floors twice, cleaned the baseboards,washed the cupboards, stove and fridge, did the dishes, cleaned the living room, bathroom AND made dinner...... now I feel like I'm married!!! The house has been cleaned, but not deep cleaned since we moved in, so it really needed it!! The floors were so gross, which is why I mopped them 2x. hehe.... I made really good dinner too, I made chicken, with chicken flavored rice, salad and asparagus.... Yummy!!! Kenny was in the yard trying to kill our everliving weeds... It was kinda cute watching him, he had to pull up his pants like 8x...I wish I had a camera.
I love being in this house and having our own space, I knew I would but you really can't appriciate it untill you have it. Our arguments have become less often and more important. They actually pertain to us now, not just taking out our frustrations of being in a house with too many people in it. It is even different then when we were living together unmarried. I guess because were living in sin anymore, I guess that would put a damper on things, lol.
Well I'm glad you guys (mom and dad) had fun in Washington, I heard about the shirts, the one you got Jade is perfect for her... hehe...
I still have presents for you guys from Vegas, I forgot to give them to dad when he was up here. I guess I'll have to mail them... well ya'll I got things to do still so I have to go, I love you all, and hope to see you soon....Ber

Easter Fun

2008-03-24T12:19:00.000-07:00

I learned a new family tradition!! How to make Kabasa and Kapusta, SOOO Yummy!!! Hellen is polish, and has always had this dinner for Easter, since she couldn't make it this year Linda and I did. We bought 12 pounds of pork for the Kabasa!!! We picked all the hard fat off for the Kapusta, cut up and seasoned the meat, put it in a meat grinder and made Kabasa (sausages),with the pig intestines, the real deal!! That was nasty and stunk so bad!! The Kapusta is sauerkrout, lima beans and the fried fat from the pork. That was sooo good!! So Easter dinner was all hand made Kabasa, kapusta and mashed potatoes, and ham, butthat was not homemade, lol.

The kids did thier annual Egg Drop, were they get a raw egg, put it in something, they think, will be coushined enough to drop it from the roof w/o the egg braking. Last year Kenny won by putting it in a shoe!!! I don't know who won this year though?. It is really fun! We didn't have an egg hunt this year, but of course they colored the eggs. So overall the day was pretty good. What did ya'll do? Was it fun? This was James's first one huh, did you dress him up as a bunny, that would have been too cute!! Kathy tell me how New York was, I want to go there soo bad!! Soo jealous.. j/k.

Well I don't really have much else to say, not much has changed or happened. How about ya'll?

Hey Em and Les, I need your blog address so I can make it a link on my blog, I will check them more that way. Thanks for always commenting on mine!! How is everyone? hopefully all is well?!

Talk to you later, love ya'll. E-mail me!!

Can you believe March is already over?! BER

Work,Home,Life

2008-03-17T12:12:00.001-07:00

Nothing really changes, it's all the same when your broke, but we are doing alright. I work untill 5 at a job I don't really like, I am trying to get a new position or a new job, which ever comes first. Kenny and I decided we didn't want him working at his day job, so now he only works nights, but is currently looking for another company. It was too much stress on him, too little pay, and bad management. I didn't feel his pay was worth a heart attack. So needless to say it is tight right now. I am kind of having a hard time adjusting to living on my income alone, his night job is cutting his hours really short now too.
Speaking of this reminds me of our lesson in sacrament this Sunday, "Staying within your means." I really did pay attention to that one, I knew how important it was that your parents show you how to manage finances, and show how real life works, and I knew a lot of divorce is caused by finacial diffuculties, but I didn't really think about how it all come together. people expect to be able to have the same life style after marriage, and most of the time you can't. So yea, it was interesting.
This past Saturday,the 15 was my first day at the temple, I did baptisms for the dead!!! It was the most incredible experience, I had, since mine.lol. But it was amazing because with a few of the people I could actually feel them, and her them say thank you. I was, I can't even explain my feelings, Dan asked me if I was ok, lets put it that way. I wanted to do it agian as soon as I was done!! AMAZING EXPERIENCE. I feel so bad for the people who can't do this for thier families, and can't experience this feeling. I can't wait till Kenny gets his recommend.
The Easter pagent was this week, and this wek so we're going to try to go with Kenny's family and Dan and Sherri. It'll be hard to schedule though because of Linda's GED testing, and Kenz is going on treck this week!!! I wish I could have been a ma, that would have been fun since I was a poop when I had my chance, O well, I 'll wait till next year.
I havn't been able to take any pictures of anything, no camera, so when I get one I'll send some. But I want my pictures, if they've been sent I havn't got them yet, I need to change my address still so, Kathy, did you send anything yet, if not please send it to Linda's house, you too mom.
But we do have everything unpacked and set up, the only thing we need now is the internet. I got a cool little desk for the computer, and a table for the dining room at Goodwill on half off Saturday. I LOVE 1/2 off at Goodwill, you can find really cool stuff, and I get all my scrubs there!! And it's the Saturday right after I get paid, hehehe.
There are a few things we are trying to work on , so if you guys could pray for us we would appreciate it. Thank You.... Don't worry though, we're ok.
Well I gatta go back to work, I'll update when I can. LOVE YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH.....BER

Our Home

2008-03-03T11:37:00.000-08:00

We moved in Saturday the 23. I don't have any pictures yet but I will get them. We moved in with out gas,electric,water... we got the electric, just got the gas on Sunday, finally got hot water ,still don't have the water in our name yet but we will soon. We are almost all the way unpacked, we just need some furniture to put stuff on and we'll be set. I don't think it'll take that long, we should get a lot of it done this weekend, on saturday 1/2 off goodwill!! Well there really isn't to much to say but I just wanted to update.... I love you all, and want to see some baby blessing pictures!!!! ttyl

we got it!!!!

2008-02-13T11:24:00.000-08:00

we got the house!!!!!!!!!! i just heard the news from kenny!!!!! i am soo thrilled, i can't even concentrate!!!!!! i don't know when we'll be able to move in or any of the details because kenny couldn't talk. as soon as i know i will tell you. i will send pictures of the house while we are moving in and also when we get all the stuff in. well i just wanted everyone to know!!!!!!!!!
yea!!! this is the best year ever, i got a new job, a new house and got married to my true love!!! god does bless lives!!! i can't wait to se what happens next!! tthank you for all the prayers and thoughts!!! i love you all. ttyl

QUESTION

2008-02-11T11:56:00.000-08:00

CAN I HAVE AN AUTOMATIC SET UP THAT E-MAILS EVERYONE WHEN I BLOG? HOW DO YOU CHANGE THE BACKGROUND AND TEMPLATE, LIKE YOURS CRYSTAL?

TAG

2008-02-11T11:20:00.000-08:00

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED TWICE YA'LL!! I'M ONLY DOING IT ONCE THOUGH,LOL.

2 NAMES I'VE GONE BY: BER, MER
WHAT I'M WEARING NOW: PURPLE SCRUBS W/A WHITE UNDER SHIRT
WHAT I WANT( OR HAVE) IN A RELATIONSHIP: GOOD COMMUNICATION, RESPECT( WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT?)
2 FAVORITE THINGS TO DO: READ SCIPTERS, SPEND TIME WITH FAMILY
2 THINGS I DID LAST NIGHT: ATE DINNER, WATCHED KENNY PLAY NBA LIVE( WHOOHOO)
2 PEOPLE I TALKED TO LAST: MOM, KENNY
2 THINGS I'M DOING TOMORROW: IDK WHO PLANS AHEAD?
2 LONGEST CAR RIDES: EVERYONE KNOWS... THE CAR RIDES TO AND FROM AZ AND UT.LOL
2 FAVORITE DRINKS: ANY JUICE AND WATER
2 THINGS YOU MAY NOT HAVE KNOWN: I HAVE THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD, I LOVE MY JOB
2 JOBS I'VE HAD: J.I.B, ADP
2 MOVIES I'D WATCH OVER AND OVER: A WALK TO REMEMBER, PRINCESS BRIDE
2 FAVORITE FOODS: POTATOES, CHICKEN
2 PLACES I'D RATHER BE: UT, WITH MY FAMILY

OK GUYS NOW I HAVE TO TAG,, SO WHO EVER COMMENTS FIRST AND LAST TAG YOUR IT!!!!! AND NOOO CHEATING SOME ONE HAS TO COMMENT, DON'T LEAVE ME HANNGING......

IM MARRIED!!!! WOW!!

2008-02-09T07:18:00.000-08:00

OK HERE WE GO,,,, I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS NOW!!! I CANT BELEIVE IT , I DON'T REALLY SEE THE DIFFERENCE YET. I KNOW IT WILL REALLY HIT HOME WHEN WE ARE IN OUR OWN HOME. I LOVE BEING MARRIED THOUGH, IT MAKES ME FEEL GROWN, HEHE. IT'S WIERD SAYING, ''OH, I HAVE TO TALK TOO MY HUSBAND FIRST," INSTEAD OF, "OH, I HAVE TO ASK MY MOM." CRAZY!! HEHE, I LOVE IT.

FOR EVERYONE WAITING FOR PICTURES, I WILL GET THEM ON MY BLOG AS SOON AS I GET THEM AND LEARN HOW O DO IT. I'M SURE IT'S NOT THAT HARD THOUGH!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ALL THE PICTURES MYSELF. I HOPE THEY ALL TURNED OUT LIKE THE ONES CRYSTAL PUT ON HER BLOG. GOOD THING SHE DID TOO, CUZ I TAKE FOREVER GETTING STUFF LIKE THAT DONE. LOL.

WELL I GOT A JOB AT A DOCTORS OFFICE IN GILBERT. I REALLY LIKE IT SO FAR. I 'M NOT DOING WHAT I WANT BUT THEY DIDN'T HAVE A POSITION OPEN RIGHT NOW FOR BACK OFFICE, SO I'M ANSWERING PHOPNES UNTILL A POSITION OPENS UP. WHICH TRINA, MY MANAGER, SAID WOULDN'T TAKE TOO LONG. IT'S NOT THAT BAD BACK HERE THOUGH, I GOT MY OWN DESK AND MY OWN LITTLE AREA, IT'S A REALLY NICE BUILDING!!! I'LL TRY TO GET SOME PICTURES.

KENNY AND I ARE WAITING FOR THE GUY TO CALL US BACK FOR THE HOUSE. WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MONDAY TO COME!! FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO MAY NOT KNOW, KENNY AND I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR HOUSES AND FINALLY FOUND ONE RIGHT DOWN THE STREET FROM LINDA'S HOUSE. IT'S A THREE BED, FOR 800 A MONTH!!! IT'S REALLY CUTE INSIDE, THE TWO ROOMS ARE KINDA SMALL AND WILL PROBABLLY BE USED FOR STORAGE OR A PLAY ROOM. IDK? THE MASTER BED IS PRETTY BIG THOUGH. I DON'T REALLY LIKE THE KITCHEN CUZ THERE IS NOOO COUNTER SPACE, BUT I GUESS I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANY THING TO PUT ON THEM ANYWAY LOL.... I LOVE THE BATHROOM SINK, IT'S A STAND ALONE PORCALIN, THE REST OF IT IS PRETTY COOL TOO, THE TUB IS A NICE SIZE TOO. AND THER'S A BACK YARD FOR DEE-BO. IT'S A PRETTY DECENT SIZE BACK YARD, FOR THE HOUSE. I REALLY HOPE WE GET IT. I HAVE A PRETTY GOOD FEELING ABOUT IT, AND MOM SAID SHE DID TOO, SO WE'LL SEE.

WELL KENNY IS STILL WORKING BOTH JOBS AND KILLING HIMSELF DOING IT. HE SAID HE WONT QUIT UNTILL I HAVE A PHONE, A CAR, AND WE HAVE A SAVINGS BUILT UP. SO HE IS BEING VERY RESPONSIBLE ABOUT IT BUT, I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ENJOY ALL OF IT WITH HIM ALIVE!! I'M JUST KIDDING IT'S NOT THAT BAD HE'S OK, IT'S JUST HARD ON HIM. I CAN'T WAIT TILL WE CAN HAVE OUR EVENINGS THOUGH. IT SHOULD BE FASTER NOW THAT I HAVE SOME MONEY COMING IN NOW, FINALLY!! I WILL ALSO HAVE INSURANCE, THAT'S GOING TO BE GOOD, WE ALWAYS NEED THAT. good grief, every time kenny get's hurt we have no insurance!

WELL WE ARE STILL MOVING OUT HELEN'S STUFF FROM HER HOUSE, SHE REFUSES TO DO IT ALL AT ONE TIME, SHE'S A FUNNY WOMAN BUT, I THINK IT'S JUST TOO HARD FOR HER TO BE THERE. LINDA AND I WENT OVER THERE W/O HER AND WE GOT ALOT MORE DONE!! WE HAD TO PACK THE KITCHEN, WHICH WAS SUPPOSIDLY DONE, HEHE. WE GOT A LOT DONE BUT STILLHAVE TO GO THERE NEXT WEEKEND. IDK I KINDA WANT TO GO TO DAN ND SHERRI'S THIS WEEKEND AND HANG OUT FOR AWHILE. I HAVE TO GIVE KENZ THE FLOWER BASKET FROM THE WEDDING, I ACCIDENTLY TOOK IT HOME WITH ME.

WE TOOK THE BOYS TO THE SKATE PARK SATURDAY WITH DEE-BO, IT WAS SO FUN. BOBBY IS REALLY GOOD!! KENNY GOT ON THE BOARD AND WAS GETTING UP THE COURAGE TO GO DOWN THE DROP, WHILE I WAS TELLING HIM HOW EASY IT WAS AND I COULD DO IT, SO WHEN HE DID IT HE SAID OK THEN YOU DO IT...... SO I WENT TO THE SMALLER ONE, LOL, AND GOT ON THE BOARD, KENNY WAS COACHING ME, ALONG WITH TERRY, I COULDN'T DO IT SO INSTEAD I WENT DOWN ON MY FEET, AND GOT THE WIND KNOCKED OUT OF ME!!! IT WAS SOO BAD, MY CHEST HURT SOO BAD, I STILL CAN'T HARDLY MOVE MY BACK W/O IT HURTING MY CHEST. AND I FELL ON MY BUTT!! I GUESS IT LOOKED REALLY FUNNY THOUGH.... I WISH I COULD OF SEEN IT.

WELL FAMILY I GATTA GO, IT'S ALMOST TIME FOR ME TO CLOCK IN. LOVE YOU ALL....

Finally catching up!!

2008-01-17T12:11:00.000-08:00

Only nine more days to go and I've got almost everything all taken care of. We got the tuxes for Kenny and Bobby, Dougie is getting his tux today. We got Bobby a tux with tails and a bow tie!! I've got the flowers and the cake, most of the decorations and Dougie is making a back drop for the pictures. I am so excited to see how it all turns out. Dan is going to bring his video camera, so who ever wants a video let me know and I'll see if I can get you one, besides you Jade I know you want one. I still can't believe BOTH my YOUNGER sisters got married before I did!! LOL. I am soo proud of you two though.
Well Kenny and I have been going to church lately, I love the ward, everyone is soo nice and wants to help. The relieve society president is soo nice. Kenny likes his teachers as well. I am soo glad we have the same goals and believes. We read the scriptures at night and say our prayers together, it is so comforting. I can't wait till we're on our own and get in the groove of life together, and to be an official family!!
I have been at Helen's (Kenny's grandmother) house for the last couple days (and will be through the week) watching over her because 3 days ago she fell 2 days in a row!! The first time she fell it was pretty bad, she hit her face on the dresser and then fell on the dog!! If the dog wasn't there she could have broke her hip!!! Her left arm got bruised up but the left side of her face got the worst of it!! The next day she fell while trying to lay the blanket down for the dogs. She said she wasn't dizzy or faint or anything so we have no idea why she fell.? So we thought it would be a good idea for me to stay here with her during the day until she gets moved in with her son, next week. I have access to a computer though, witch is why I am updating. Once we get moved in I'll set up my computer and will be able to update more often.
Yesterday I called my school to see if they could help me get a job and to see if there was any type of refresher course I could take so I can pass that stupid test!! They told me to come down and update my resume so they could send it out, and she'd check to see if I could come back to school but not for credits. Well then today I get a call, at Helen's house, from a lady at a Dr. office asking me if I want to set up an interview!! She said she called the school to get someone from the A list and they gave her my name!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't even gone up there to update my resume yet!! The lady from my school was supposed to e-mail me so I could e-mail her the info from ADP and Kenny's new cell number. When I checked my e-mail there was none from her but like 14 from you all!!! But they still recommended me!!! I am so happy!! It didn't even take near as long as I though t it would!! This is definitely an answered prayer!! I am very grateful.
I will let you all know how the interview goes. I have to do my work out now. I will most likey blog tomorrow too, if anything happens. TTYL. LOVE YA'LL.!!

Hey Ya'll

2007-12-11T18:36:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone!! I don't really have anything to announce or talk about but......?
I am going to AZ for the weekend for Kenny's grandfather's funerals. At least he is out of pain and in a much prettier and happier place now. I am kinda nervous to go because I have never been to a non Mormon funeral before, I have no idea what to expect. I do know that it wont be what I'm used to hearing about death and what happens afterwords. I am SOO thankful I have the gospel in my life and can take comfort in the afterlife. Kenny knows that too, and is thankful he can baptize his grandfather and be sealed to him.
On a happier note... I get to see Kenny for the weekend and meet his family, ones from out of state. And I am going to give Kenny his Christmas presents now, I got him three shirts and a Michigan sweatshirt, since he's from there. I think he will really enjoy them. I went to a new store to UT,but I guess they're everywhere. Everything in the store is under $20.00 and is really nice quality!! It's my new favorite store, I bought some things too, I couldn't help myself..lol...
Well my job is going well and so is Kenny's. Today was my first day on the phones in my new department, I hope things get better, I'm really nervous. Kenny is still a bouncer at night and is doing well, making about$100 a night, only working 5 hours a night. I guess Wednesdays he makes a little more than that.
The other day he called me about 3 am and told me to look on the Internet for him to find the closest hospital, I guess he had almost cut his thumb off. He was cleaning up the bar area, since they pay him more to do the side work, and when he pulled out the garbage bag, a broken beer bottle sliced through his thumb all the way to the tendon.
I guess that is all the news I have, I will write agian when I get back from AZ. I hope everyone is doing well and feeling well too. I love you all.

My Birthday

2007-11-24T21:46:00.000-08:00

Thank you to all who came, I really enjoyed myself and all your company!!! I love all the presents and will use them all. I was really glad to see the whole family and my good friends. I don't think I could have picked a better movie or restaurant!! I heard good reviews from everyone, so I think you all agreed.? Well I just wanted to say thank you and let you know I had a really great time. Thank you all.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

2007-11-23T05:36:00.000-08:00

We had a beautiful Thanksgiving!! It was so fun to be around family and enjoy everyone's company. Mom made a great dinner and desserts, YUMMY! Crystal and Devin came down to eat with us and so did Joey, Kathy and her nephew Dan. Before dinner we went around the room and everyone told us what they were thankfull for, it was really neat, I really enjoed hearing eveyone's thoughts. It set a great mood!!
After dinner Jade and Joey left togo eat dessert at Joey's mom's house and Crystal and Devin left for his mom's house for more dinner and dessert! So it was Kathy and her nephew left so we all went bowling, it was soo fun, I lost miserably. I can't remember who won, Hehe.
Kenny called me with not so great news on his grandfather, he was pretty upset so I talked to him for awhile and tried to cheer him up a little. I don't know if helped him but he seemed to sound better when he hung up, so maybe. I really hope Kenny is going to be ok when he passes, Kenny loves him soo much. I just hope I can be there for him.
Well on a happier note, Kenny and I are still getting married on the 26 of January, but I am going down on the 19. I have the invetations ready to print, and then I can send them out and invite people! lol. I really think this thing will turn out really well. My dress is paid for, I have a photographer (thanks Kathy), I have a caterer (thanks Dougie), I know where I'm getting the cake, and which one, I have the place and the bishop, I know how I want to decorate, and I have the perfect groom (thanks Kenny)!
I hope to see you there!!

It's been awhile!!!

2007-10-07T20:07:00.000-07:00

Wow to think I could have been married for 2 days already if we had done it on the first day we planned it (which was October 5th). I am glad we decided to wait and do it when we have the monry to get into a nice apartment in a nice area. I do want to be married already though, I miss being away from him, and his brothers too. Well I start working at ADP tomorrow, I am very excited and cant wait to start making some money!! I will have to save alot of it but it'll be fun to make it anyhow. The trip to A.Z. was an answered prayer, Jade got the ruling she deserved and got to come home with us. I know the spirit was there with us and everyone in there that needed to make the ruling on her behave. The whole day just went so smoothly and we got everything taken care of that we needed to, it was just a really good day for all of us. Joey got to come with us, and that was soo neat for him, I am glad he got to go for her.
I am soo excited about the test and I think I will be ready for it in November, when I can finally take it over agian. I have been studying everyday, a chapter a day and vocab words on saturdays, for I think 2 months! I am definetly ready to be done with this! Although I do like having the time to myself for an hour or so just to learn and read interesting things. I really am thrilled to be in this field and be able to help people in ways that they really need it.
Well there is still more to talk about but I do hae to get some sleep tonight because I have to get up so early now. I wanted to do a brief update at least though. So goodnight, and I will blog later.

It's official, but the day is different.

2007-09-13T20:29:00.000-07:00

I wanted to change the date because I was worried about the finances coming together and the fact that we still didn't know where we were going to live I thought it would be best to post pone it till we had more to work with and a place to stay. So we changed the date to January 26th, now no one can say they didn't have enough time to plan for it : ). I really hope everyone can come, I was kinda bummed when we had it set for October because not even half of the family would be able to make it. So anyways, now everyone knows and can plan for January 26th. Put it in your calendars.

It's official

2007-09-02T20:40:00.000-07:00

I am getting married on October 5, at 7:00 p.m. at Kenny's church in Mesa A.Z. I am so very excited and ready to get my life started in this direction. I am soo proud of Kenny and so thankful for him. I am so gratefull I will have the priesthood in my family, and will be able to bring up my children in the gospel. I am so thankfull for my dad, who is going to baptize him, and helped answer his questions. I have never really felt as comfortable with myself and the desicions I've made as I do now. I am also thankfull for that because I know it's because of the church, and my Heavenly Father guiding me and answering my prayers. Anyway I just thought I should share that.................So, when I was in A.Z. I spent 3 hours at the dmv and got my licence, and now that I'm moving to A.Z. in October I wont have to swith it over to a U.T. licence. which is good because that's one less step I have to worry about!.........................After the wedding I will be staying with Dan for however long it takes to get a house or an apartment. Since I got a job with my dad, I should be able to bring a decent amount of money to the table(I make $ 20 an apointment I make for my dad and his agent) so that should help some. ...............I hope you all like these colors because these are going to be my colores for the wedding. they look alot better on flowers and in ribbon, I love them together. Well anyways I am still studying like crazy and getting ready for the test in November. I am so excited to get back into the field! Well I guess that's it, I am so gratefull for everyone who is coming to the baptism and so gratefull to everyone who wants to come and be supportive but cant make it, and so is Kenny. Love you all and see ya later.

What's the answer?

2007-08-27T10:47:00.000-07:00

Since we both had different answers, and one main goal, I decided we should ask together and then he should get a blessing and then we would know our answer. Dad gave him a blessing after church, and though we didn't get an answer out right we did know that we would come to a conclusion and we would be OK. We talked to my parents and about it, we got some good advice and took into consideration. Uncle Dan had a great idea to have a couples prayer and talk about it after that. So we did do that, Kenny was able to express his feelings more freely and I was able to listen with a more open mind. We came to the conclusion that we would get married and stay down there for his family, and then when they pass we'll move to U.T. I knew that we would be able to do it and we did. That strengthened my faith in of our relationship, I know that no matter what problems we come across as long as we've got each other and our Heavenly Father we will always be able to come to a conclusion, and we will be taken care of.

Hello Everyone

2007-08-21T12:11:00.000-07:00

When I get to A.Z. all I have to do is get my licence at the mvd, then transfer it over to a U.T. one when I get back, at least that's what they said when I called, hopefully it is that easy. I have till November 2nd till I can re-take my test. I am praying that I can take it that day or, at least that week. So I guess Kenny has been doing real well in getting to know the morman religon and says he claims it and knows it to be true! I am so excited about that and am so glad I could introduce it to him, and help him along the way (mom and dad also played a big part in that). He thanks me almost every time I talk to him. He says he's thinking about the day he wants to get baptized, he wants it to be soon, but doesn't want to rush things, that was also the advice of the missionaries. They told him he can do it when he feels ready and can finish the lessons, if he isn't done with them by the time he wants to get baptized. So here is my thinking, and also the answers I've gotten from my questions regarding this topic: The first thing is that after 6 months from the date of his baptism we can get married. We would wait to get sealed because he has to be active for a year. The part that I am unsure about ,that means the most to Kenny , is that when we're married he wants to stay down there untill his grandparents pass. I really don't want to do all that because that means more moving and switching jobs and all that, but it means a whole lot to Kenny that we're down there for them. I told him I would do that for him, I just really don't want to get stuck down there, for whatever reason, and not be able to come back to U.T.. He told me we would only make 6 month leases on an apt. so we could leave right away, and that we don't have to wait for him to find a job down here because dad told him already that he could work for him. I guess when you weigh it out (my concerns and his concerns) Kenny's not really asking for much, and maybe I'm being selfish to be concerned about the things I don't want to deal with:moving and transfering jobs. I know how important his grandparents are to him, and I would never leave my family when they were about to die.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If I don't get a job now then it'll be harder for me to get a job there (and here) because I have been out of school for so long and have no other expereince. So I would have to get a job now and then transfer or quit so I can go to A.Z. and get a job there, then ultimatly have to do the same thing so I could come back. Which I would not wait for a job to be lined up (if I didn't transfer) down here I would just leave and then find a job when I got back. I don't know. I guess it'll be easier to figure it out when the time is closer, because I'm not going to go anywhere till we get married. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I guess I should start planning for that soon too. I hope everyone can go down there because his family wouldn't be able to come down here. I guess we worry about that later too, because it wont be for 6 months after his baptism. Anyways........... I study everyday for my test and basiclly that's what my day consits of, I do have to start looking for a job, and picking out the very basics of the wedding decerations, I also have to quit being so lazy and start working out. Well I hope you all aren't bored of my rambling, love you all and talk to you later. There Crystal I finally did it. LOL....

I made it.

2007-08-06T21:28:00.000-07:00

I am here now and am doing great. I can get my licence but still have to go through a process to get it, but at least I can!! I have to take my credentails test over agian for m.a. but that's just a minor set back, I'll do better next time. I finally got the internet set up on my computer so I can get back to my blog and my e- mails. I am having alot of fun with my sisters and my grandma and uncle Mike, I havn't seen my other uncle or aunt yet, but I'm sure it wont be long before I do. I am so very excited to see the girls, I just hope I don't scare them since it's been so long since the last time I saw them. Though I am having fun with my family and staying with them I am kinda excited to get out and get an apartment of my own, and have my own room, O yea I'll have my own rrom when the house is finished, yea, I forgot about that. Well any way I am verry tired and need to sleep, I just wanted to kinda catch up. t.t.y.l. , Amber. Love you all

my stomach hurts

2007-07-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

I don't even know what to say ,I just know that I don't feel good and I want to b home. He told me that he didn't understand why I couldn't just sta here till w/ him if this all worked out, and he was doing everything he could and he wants me to meet him half way. I told him I cant put my live on hold and I needed to be in u.t. He said that I could get a job here and we could get married and start adopting all in the time that I would be there. I didn't ask if he had even look into the church or not, all I said was I need to there and I need to start my career and life there. My stomach hurt so bad and I didn't even know what to say. I know some one's going to tell me to jus not answer his e-mails and just go on, and I know. I just had to get it off my chest. please hurry and get me. I know I have to wait anyways bcuz of the test but yea, I just want to be home. I love you all, see you soon, Berber

THANK YOU FAMILY

2007-07-18T18:56:00.000-07:00

I know I've been doing it along the way but I really want to thank you all for helping me and getting eveything ready for me to come home. I feel bad because you do it everytime I say I'm coming. Well this time feels more right and I feel alot better about it. Mom I really appreciate you sending that down for me so I could get all caught up. Crystal I really appreciate the fact that you've been there for me to talk to when I needed to talk to family,and cuz I hadnt told mom yet. lol .... Jade I've been trying to talk to you but I guess your never on. I love you too and am sure you'd be there for me too if you knew. I cant wait to get a job and go shopping w/ my three favorite women. I am really excited to put up my new computer too, isnt it wierd that I'm on the computer and typing...lol!!!!!!
I really dont like sitting and waiting when I know there's so much for me to do @home. I know I'm being a big baby it's only a few weeks, and I am having fun here. We went to the lake yesturday and I knee-boarded it was so fun. It's really funny to watch Gary wake board cuz he has skinny legs and he has to bend his knees, it just looks really funny, he did pretty well thou. Matt did really well on the wake board to,he looked soo cute out there.Kenz didnt have very good luck on it though,she tried a couple times and just got frustrated w/ it .Dan ofcourse did great. Sheri didnt do it she said she was just fine where she was.lol. Dan and Gary jumped off the side of the boat (on the rack )doing back flips they're pretty good ,it wasfun to watch.We even saw a mountin goat(We went to Canyon Lake) and Kenz named it Billy.lol...she's so funny
We went school shopping for them that was pretty interesting... we were out all afternoon. Kenz went to holister and got some very cute outfits and Matt got some cute outfits at tilly's. I couldnt believe how rude the staff manager was at holister, she was horrible she really hated being there and didnt care who knew. O well I guess that's what you get when you go to those kinds of stores. The day was fun thou.
9 more days till your here yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tell Devin's family I'm excited to meet them too. Well I'm going to go play monopoly,Love you all.....Berber

Bad Dream

2007-07-17T09:03:00.000-07:00

I go back and im all histarical about being there and feel like everyone should be excited that i came back instead of going back w/my family.they all put on a front like they are but i can't see throu it. Then we start to argue and there seems to be no reason for it. I start crying and then get up to get some tissue only for some reason i dont use it even though its there instead i use his dirty boxers.? his mom yells at me saying why do you always go to use his thingsi tell her there dirty and it doesnt matter, he yells back somthing at me and i scream back, that he uses them too and im only do what i see him do. I get up to put them n the dirty clothes where i found them and when i get to the corner i hear him say,"No, Ihave to wait for her to brake uo w/ me!" I rush out from back behind the wall and yell sadly i already left, why are you playing these games you always play games w/ me! He yells something back that i cant remember,but, his mom says k**** she'll be here soon! As i'm gathering my things i ask comandingly who 's coming and why is she coming so late? As soon as i ask S****** comes screaching up the driveway and rocks. K****"s mom yells to him she's here. He gets all excited and heads tword the door.I'm done scampering through the house cuz most my stuff is still at D** and S*****'s. S****** doesnt hesitate or knock she comes in and heads straight for the bathroom in her bakini. I run out the door and am thinking how am i going to get back i really dont want to tae the bus, then i remember i have a 50 in my wallet and i'll just call a cab.I'm still running down the street and now into the main road w/ oncoming traffic coming fast.I get to the median and see the storethat has a payphone so i can call my cab and get back to Q****C****. Then i wake up, I guess bcuz I knew I woud be ok now,thats how i felt anyway. I have been having a terible time trying to get to sleep the last couple nights but lastnight takes the cake. I dont know really why it felt so much like a nightmare but it did and as soon as I woke up I wanted to put it on my blog. Tell me what you think family.

i did it agian

2007-07-16T16:46:00.000-07:00

i left him again and it hurts so bad to think i would be better of w/o him.i just feel like its really unfair of me to keep asking him to change things that he desnt see the wrong in.its only been two full days but it feels like forever. it really hurt me to tell him that it wasnt what i wanted anymore because its only half way true,bu the hings that i needed to change are too big to ask anybody to change. i really hope god can help me get through this and show me my true purpose here and who im supposed to make my life w/. i really hope i did the right thing, i feel like i did but it just hurts so bad its kinda hard to believe. im just lucky i have a family who will support me no matter what i decide.thank you for that. so i guess its back to my parents house for awhile,and back to square one with a new job. i am thankfull i have a career i can go into though.lord help me.....

this is me

2007-07-02T10:51:00.000-07:00

i finally got to college to be an m.a. . i just finished my extern and am now looking for a job. well kinda, I'm not really looking cuz its the weekend but yea. i really want to work in peds w/ all the babies and kids, they're so cute, its kinda sad thou when you have to give them their shots. i had to give 2 babies their shots on my extern. I'm so excited to get started though! i really miss my family and am glad they're coming to see me for the weekend, in a couple weeks. i really want to move back home and maybe i will after i take the final test that says I'm an ma everywhere i go not just here. There are a few things i need to do before i can go though. i really need to pray hard and find out the next move in my life. I'm just glad that i have my sister here w/ me for a little while till her and her husband get the money to move back home too. i guess no one likes it here anymore. : ).........