Monday, July 16, 2007
i did it agian
i left him again and it hurts so bad to think i would be better of w/o him.i just feel like its really unfair of me to keep asking him to change things that he desnt see the wrong in.its only been two full days but it feels like forever. it really hurt me to tell him that it wasnt what i wanted anymore because its only half way true,bu the hings that i needed to change are too big to ask anybody to change. i really hope god can help me get through this and show me my true purpose here and who im supposed to make my life w/. i really hope i did the right thing, i feel like i did but it just hurts so bad its kinda hard to believe. im just lucky i have a family who will support me no matter what i decide.thank you for that. so i guess its back to my parents house for awhile,and back to square one with a new job. i am thankfull i have a career i can go into though.lord help me.....
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Amber,
I am really really proud of you! I am sorry that you have to go through all this hurt, but I know it will make you stronger in the end and you will be a happier person!
I don't have any doubt that you will get a great job here, you will be well on your way to making the medical feild work as your career! Any hospital will be glad to have you, you're always so caring!
I can't wait for you to get up here! See you soon,
Crys
thank you so much crystal! i am having a hard time w/this but it just gets harder at night when im alone. thanks for your words they mean alot, i a looking forward to being home and around more family.
Hey, kiddo! I'm sooo sorry for you. I know that's a hard thing. You've been together a long time. Like you said tho...I think it's for the better too and if he can't see a reason to change, he won't. Once you realize you're going in different directions and have different goals in life there REALLY isn't any hope. (sad but true).
I'm not going to tell you what to do, you have to figure that out for yourself. You're doing the right thing tho...pray about it and you will get the right answers. Know we love you and are here for you ALWAYS!
P.S. There is a brand new IHC hospital opening this next summer less than a mile from our house.
Thank you mom,it really helps to hear from family and know that it can only get better.
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