Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Bad Dream
I go back and im all histarical about being there and feel like everyone should be excited that i came back instead of going back w/my family.they all put on a front like they are but i can't see throu it. Then we start to argue and there seems to be no reason for it. I start crying and then get up to get some tissue only for some reason i dont use it even though its there instead i use his dirty boxers.? his mom yells at me saying why do you always go to use his thingsi tell her there dirty and it doesnt matter, he yells back somthing at me and i scream back, that he uses them too and im only do what i see him do. I get up to put them n the dirty clothes where i found them and when i get to the corner i hear him say,"No, Ihave to wait for her to brake uo w/ me!" I rush out from back behind the wall and yell sadly i already left, why are you playing these games you always play games w/ me! He yells something back that i cant remember,but, his mom says k**** she'll be here soon! As i'm gathering my things i ask comandingly who 's coming and why is she coming so late? As soon as i ask S****** comes screaching up the driveway and rocks. K****"s mom yells to him she's here. He gets all excited and heads tword the door.I'm done scampering through the house cuz most my stuff is still at D** and S*****'s. S****** doesnt hesitate or knock she comes in and heads straight for the bathroom in her bakini. I run out the door and am thinking how am i going to get back i really dont want to tae the bus, then i remember i have a 50 in my wallet and i'll just call a cab.I'm still running down the street and now into the main road w/ oncoming traffic coming fast.I get to the median and see the storethat has a payphone so i can call my cab and get back to Q****C****. Then i wake up, I guess bcuz I knew I woud be ok now,thats how i felt anyway. I have been having a terible time trying to get to sleep the last couple nights but lastnight takes the cake. I dont know really why it felt so much like a nightmare but it did and as soon as I woke up I wanted to put it on my blog. Tell me what you think family.
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5 comments:
Oh man...that's pretty big stuff. I didn't realize it was this bad for you. Just relax, it will all be ok. Dreams like that come from desperation. They help you realize and put into focus exactly what you're thinking even if it isn in an abstract manner. Pay attention to it but don't dwell on it and make yourself sick.
Love you!
I agree with mom. Even if it isn't the exact situation, the dream is trying to tell you that you made a good decision to leave. While you were in the house it was all caotic and was making you mad and sick, when you left and were on your way back home you felt all better. I think your dream is trying to put into focus that you left a bad place and you are now on your way to a happy place.
Wow I wrote that and didnt even see it!! I mean the part that I felt better when I knew I was on my way home, or back to dan and sheri's.wow....,agian, thank you.
and thank you too mom, i know i need to relax but when mom says it it's easier to do. love you bolth so much see you soon.
it's amazing what an outside source helps you to see, huh?!
yea no kidding!!! :- )
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